But.... the Negro Modelo's swayed my better judgement and I tried the fish tacos. Smokey and spicy hot with lots of mesquite, we squeezed limes all over them that combined with the cilantro to refresh our spirits. Ok, maybe it was the beer. Either way I can smell and taste them some 11 years later. From time to time I attempt to make fish tacos. Oh, they are good - but not like the first time. It never like the first time. Is it?
Those tacos were so unique. The setting, my companion (we call him Freebase - ROFL), the exhaustive day, all lead to a one of a kind. While we are all one of a kind, I notice through my days people seem blended and homogenized. Are they afraid of being different, on the edge, of trying something new? Oh, you get the few who wear the piercings or wild clothes, but are they really different or just vying for attention? Excuse me, that piercing on your eyebrow is seeping!
I know of 2 fish Tacos..... Heather and (yep, you guessed it) Freebase. The live 2000 miles apart, never met, probably never will and live the life of "doing exactly what I want to do". They told me that with such grace I know its true. Can you say that? Heather and Freebase exude happiness. It comes from their eyes and the tone of their voice. If i were to recollect, I'll bet I think of them at least once or twice a week, "how utterly envious a life".
What makes that happen in a person? No, I will not venture a comment here.... you ponder that. What I will say is that question pops up often in the context of my role as a father. Damn those pesky thoughts at 2:00 am. These fine young daughters of mine..... some 10, 20, 30 years from now, I believe they will say that they are doing exactly what they want to do. And in part, I hope I help them get to that point.
As for me, I am not there yet. Its been a long road and I chose a path that was not based on my happiness but on providing. Thats my nature - a provider, a hunter. Lately though I have made changes - well, some changes have been enacted upon me too. But, through careful cognitive work I now make choices with a theme of happiness, not of acquisition. Its a very strange feeling but its one I know from a long time ago as a child - being carefree. Of laying on the grass on the front lawn at 14 years old and looking up at the sky for what seemed like hours.........
I continue my efforts to build something new. I have made good progress and will be taking the next large step over 4 weeks. I am not afraid nor am I confident. Objective would be the right word. I am a bit excited to learn what the outcome will be.
What's on tap for the market on Friday:
AAPL r/g
NSU bottom play
DRIV
MFN
MKTG
SCO - oil is getting extened
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
What will I Build?
What will you Build?
